just when I'm in the middle of Detox I find my will tested dramatically. The book was right...it will emotionally strain me. It is starting to especially with the turn of events the past weekend.

I failed to detoxify...instead I indulged...twice.

Do I hate myself for being weak and human? Not really. But I hate myself that I put myself in a situation wherein i may have lost a friend because I indulged.

It felt really good inside and out to indulge but at the end of the day I still felt...empty. I guess I cannot be amonng the few who can induldge and not feel guilty about it even a bit. Honestly, I think I did no wrong. This is a free country and the act of indulging was not illegal at all. However...it feels weird still.

I have to detach. Its so damn hard. But I have to.

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A successful victory party/reunion for the Circle was held in my condo over the weekend.

me and my friends cooked 10 pizzas! I also mixed some punch which by the way made me really tipsy.

I could say that everybody had tons of fun...including and most especially myself...and maybe not for the right reasons.


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A new semester officially starts tomorrow. Its the first time I'm overloading. I think I'll be meeting lots of new people from lawschool as well since my schedule is quite a "mix".

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Dear Lord thanks for bringing me into the second semester. I request for Your dear guidance.