I'm in the middle of finals week and as expected I find myself in the usual wrap.

Nowadays there is a conscious effort on my part to just live in the "now" and try to push the recent unfortunate events at the back of my head (or my consciousness). I don't know if its going to work.

But I hope it does. I hope that God will make me okay whatever happens. I want to learn how to trust Him and myself.


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I have found a new project for myself next semester (if I'm still in lawschool) . I have found a new reason or motivation to go to school (hehe). For those who know me well you know what I mean.

But its nothing serious really. I'm still going to meet that Italian/Croatian/Turk guy who will give me beautiful kids (with big wide eyes) in the future. ;)

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I really want him to be my really good friend. That would really be nice. That would be great. That's what's proper.

No illusions. No hallucinations.

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*sigh*
*sigh*
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