It was painful to see the one you love go away. Especially when you see it in slow motion just like in the movies.

We've been inseparable since 2nd year and now I just have to let go and move on from this day onward.

I decided I would end it this morning. I was on my way back to my boarding house from the gym. While walking by the stores on the street I saw my reflection and then just stopped right in the middle of the sidewalk. Right then and there I decided that I had to say goodbye.

I walked into this place full of mirrors. I was staring now more at my relfection. I told myself, "not bad at all" and I smiled. Then I sat down and waited for my turn.

Slowly my curly hair fell down on the floor. =)

It was quite amazing how I've grown attached to it. I was almost certain that I would shed a tear. But I held it back. For some reason a trip to the hairstylist is almost always emotional for me. This was no exception.

I've learned a lot in the past 15 months that I had my hair curled. 3 days after I had my hair curled X2 and I broke up. I embraced my curly hair as a way to amuse and distract myself. X2 and I are in touch but I feel nothing but pity for him now and also some concern especially with the news that I heard about his failed suicide attempt last month. I am certain that I am finally over him. Today I start from anew...today I say goodbye to my curly hair and embrace the new things and changes in my life.

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