Just when I'm in the middle of Detox I find my will tested dramatically. The book was right...it will emotionally strain and drain me. It is starting to do so especially with the turn of events the past weekend.

I failed to detoxify...instead I indulged...twice.

Do I hate myself for being weak and human? Not really. But I hate myself cuz I placed myself in a situation wherein i may have lost a friend because I indulged OR maybe because I did not indulge enough due to some issues/circumsstances.

It felt really good inside and out to throw caution in the wind. However, like the capricorn that I am I had to be rational towards the end. I guess I cannot be among the few who can induldge and not feel guilty about it even a bit. Honestly, I think I did no wrong. This is a free country and the act of indulging was not illegal at all. However, I'm still not used to it.

I have to detach. Its so damn hard. But I have to.

Or else I'll fall really hard...like a big thump on the cold ground.

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A successful victory party/reunion for the Circle was held in my condo over the weekend.

me and my friends cooked 10 pizzas! I also mixed some punch which by the way made me really tipsy.

I could say that everybody had tons of fun...including and most especially myself...

I had a number of realizations as well.

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A new semester officially starts tomorrow. Its the first time I'm overloading. I think I'll be meeting lots of new people from lawschool as well since my schedule is quite a "mix". Thank YOU for bringing me into second semester. I request for Your Divine guidance throughout the semester not just academically but in the other aspects of my life as well.