Persons are complex beings.
Sweet Little Ice Queen
I love analyzing people and situations, people say its a gift. Unfortunately, I have great difficulty analyzing who I really am and I'm already in my early twenties.
I hope this online journal will help me sort myself out or this would be the best venue to vent out pent up cold anxiety...and share the things that make me warm, sweet and happy (or sappy!).
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* Tuesday, November 01, 2005 *
Unbelievable
At present I am experiencing unbelievable boredom. This is the second day I've experienced this. Its not really a problem but more of a status that I am not used to.
Boredom can be easily killed by watching tv or reading a book. For some reason my mind refuses to accept written material. After reading for a while I am reminded of lawschool and I get really anxious. Truth be told I'm not even praying about grades anymore because it just makes me sad and puts me in a disposition where I feel helpless. I am helpless at this point because I am waiting for my grades to come out. I realized something about the past semester...I could have answered more questions in the exams had I been awake most of the class hours. I relied on written material alone. I failed at being "there" when there was class. My mind would wander and most of the time my seatmates would find me asleep. If God would make me stay for another sem, I swear I will try my best to be awake.
Tv isn't really helping me with my boredom. The only channels I like is discovery channel, animal planet, national geographic, AXN and the food network. But at some point I get tired of watching frogs, snakes, polar bears, disasters and crimescenes. All that cooking in the food network makes me hungry. Thus, I end up sleeping AGAIN! The gym is closed today so I'm stuck to hibernation mode.
I can't believe my life has turned exciting to pathetic in a span of a few days. From out of town trips to being stuck at home. I guess when one lives in FAiRVIEW...one can't help it. I haven't stepped out of the house in days since I got here.
Interacting with family isn't really the "funnest" nowadays. So, here I am bored and blogging. I'm not making much sense really but what the hell!
Although, I have lifted my 5 month dating holiday I'm still not dating. Wala na rin cguro akong gana. Its a sad thought but that's how I feel. I guess I'm just happy and content daydreaming from my bed of romances and relationships. What a tiring sem of lawschool and a scary "infatuation" can do to dampen one's spirit.
Boredom can be easily killed by watching tv or reading a book. For some reason my mind refuses to accept written material. After reading for a while I am reminded of lawschool and I get really anxious. Truth be told I'm not even praying about grades anymore because it just makes me sad and puts me in a disposition where I feel helpless. I am helpless at this point because I am waiting for my grades to come out. I realized something about the past semester...I could have answered more questions in the exams had I been awake most of the class hours. I relied on written material alone. I failed at being "there" when there was class. My mind would wander and most of the time my seatmates would find me asleep. If God would make me stay for another sem, I swear I will try my best to be awake.
Tv isn't really helping me with my boredom. The only channels I like is discovery channel, animal planet, national geographic, AXN and the food network. But at some point I get tired of watching frogs, snakes, polar bears, disasters and crimescenes. All that cooking in the food network makes me hungry. Thus, I end up sleeping AGAIN! The gym is closed today so I'm stuck to hibernation mode.
I can't believe my life has turned exciting to pathetic in a span of a few days. From out of town trips to being stuck at home. I guess when one lives in FAiRVIEW...one can't help it. I haven't stepped out of the house in days since I got here.
Interacting with family isn't really the "funnest" nowadays. So, here I am bored and blogging. I'm not making much sense really but what the hell!
Although, I have lifted my 5 month dating holiday I'm still not dating. Wala na rin cguro akong gana. Its a sad thought but that's how I feel. I guess I'm just happy and content daydreaming from my bed of romances and relationships. What a tiring sem of lawschool and a scary "infatuation" can do to dampen one's spirit.