I entered the second semester steady and empowered. I felt that I was in control although I struggled to be. I was happy. I was steady...until you came along.

I started to rethink things. I started to consider stuff.

You ask me if I ever miss you.

But how can I miss someone I barely remember? Someone whose memory is fading day by day.

You tell me you'd want to be there to comfort me but your shadow I don't even see. The comfort you say you wish to express I don't even feel. While there is a saying that it's the thought that counts...in my book a thought cannot make things happen.

Its just not happening.

I have no to time & energy to act enthusiastic when all I get are words...in digital form.

It is time to say goodbye. The four weeks was interesting and our first date would be my most memorable first date ever. For that I am thankful.

Thank you for testing my capacity to keep my mind and heart on track. Now I know that I am truly ready to be alone.

Please leave me alone and stop pretending there is really something there that you can offer me.

Goodbye J.