To those who are close to me you guys know that the drama of my life is often about people leaving me and my struggle to finally let go.

This week it was I who left and let go of someone whom I really liked and cared for. I made the choice to leave the "relationship" swiftly (he didn't see it coming) so that I couldn't change my mind anymore. I thought I would feel extremely happy after making my choice. I was wrong. I became sad. I'm sad that I might not see him any more. Ever. I would consider myself lucky if he would even talk to me.

He hates me right now for sure. And no matter what I say to myself...I actually care that he hates me now. I'm sad that we may never be friends.

I still care. But I had to let him go. If I held on much longer perhaps I would have never let him go and that would have meant disaster. Hindi ko talaga kaya ang drama na "you and me against the world".

I feel that I'm worthy of a relationship that doesn't fall under the "it's complicated" category. That's why I had to let go of this one.

But I'm still sad. Making the right decision wasn't easy.